| [title card] december |
[Dec. 27th, 2025|05:03 pm] |
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well. christmas came and went. i didn't write anything about it because i don't really celebrate! it's... a... to me, it's like.. [flounders a little] it feels like another one of those social conventions that just makes other people feel bad, but this one seems to be more socially acceptable all around? i don't really know. it comes with a lot of pressure even to people who seem to appreciate holidays. my girlfriend got me a sonic plush, because they wanted to, and though i'm usually very resistant to receiving gifts (i... don't feel... like i deserve them, most of the time...) it would be cute and comforting to me so i'm pretty chuffed about it. little guy will be here around mid january as long as i don't forget to check in with customs. mom got laid off, we're struggling, rent isn't paid, it's whatever. i've decided to stop stressing out about it and just take each day in stride. it doesn't make poverty less... stressful... to be in, but it keeps me from freaking the fuck out all the time because.. like.. that's not going to change anything. seems like everyone's a little fucked financially recently anyways. the state of the world worries me sometimes! but we've survived worse as a society. i'm excited for 2025 to be over. it wasn't as bad as 2024.. i had a lot of good things happen and good times but ultimately it's overstayed its welcome. i know the mere passage of time isn't magical and it won't make things better but, you know... we use these measures of time as a matter of perspective more than anything.
in other news, i finally watched all of katanagatari (and am currently reading the novels).... AND simultaneously getting into trigun at the behest of my other partner (that's a story for another entry). all around really good and also you should watch katanagatari. please. please? for me? it's good. "why are you not talking about trigun are you less enthusiastic about it" don't even joke about it lad. i just keep getting shy because it's something i care about that someone else showed me so i'm a little bashful. things are interesting, things are interesting... even if life is hard, i've been unlocking a sense of deep satisfaction about it recently. i think everything is going to work out. please hang onto hope, even, no, especially when it's hard. it may take a long time, and we may falter, but i think we're all a lot more capable than we think.
P.S.: it's 85f but feels like 100-something right now. i feel like a bowl of melted butter |
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| What IS wrong with Gaming Journalism? |
[Dec. 25th, 2025|10:45 am] |
Shit, I can’t be the only doofus to fuckin’ ask this question, right? God knows I’ve asked it many times, but y’see, I’m in a peculiar position. Carryin’ a pair of tits will do that to ya, couple that with an innate rebellious attitude and a love for retro games ‘cause of economic status and y’got yourself a recipe to make most American gamers whinge — even the nerds that permeate some of the retro space may have a problem with me, and we’re supposed to be more or less the same team!
What can I say? I’m too cool to be a nerd but too nerdy to be cool. Such is my long-standing curse, but that isn’t the end of it.
On top of all of it, I’m also a punk. Even though I no longer partake in the community (‘cause I have none) and distance myself from bein’ exclusively in that space, I got the political and social wisdom it imparted on me. Wisdom bein’, everythin’ fucking sucks but y’can always help your community ‘round you to make a change. Also, you can’t put Avril Lavigne in your fuckin’ crust pants, that’s not a crust band to put on yer crust PANT. My sensibilities and ability to call BULLSHIT have made me look deeper beyond the mainstream assumption that Gaming Journalism is just bad.
Sure, I can betcha is flawed like most other fuckin’ things in the world, but why is it BAD exactly? This question won’t be answered in this blog post, I’m postin’ the question for all the curious eyes scopin’ out my site, but I like givin’ extra context to why I’m askin’. Y’see, I can’t help but to notice that everytime someone says this to me it comes from a source I don’t trust. My brother says Gaming Journos are bad? I remember that he loves Asmongold and genuinely believes white racism is a thing. Twitter user Buttnuttgooner1488 tells me Gaming Journos are woke, damaging to the industry and shit? Well the symbolism in his frontpage aren’t exactly friendly, are they?
I realize this may be ‘cause I’m biased…. well D’UH, y’fuckin’ donut. What d’ya think? I’m not takin’ or hearin’ any gospel spoken outta the moufs of dimwits who have “PRINCIPLES” teeterin’ on the edge of danger fascist rhetoric – and you’ve gotta be a moron to take what they say with no pinch of salt. Half the time the criticizing ‘bout gaming journo ends up fallin’ down the anti-woke/sjw pipeline and delusional dreams ‘bout how the gaming community has always been acceptin’ of women and queer gamers (they don’t even touch the topic of racism ‘cause that would be havin’ to pull lotsa fucking weird tricks from under their sleeves).
I’m not askin’ for a “neutral” account and analysis. That’s another fuckin’ problem, the so-called CENTRISTS’ are just gutless gonzos who can never make a decision in their lives (and comin’ from a versatile bisexual? that’s a BURN) or signal their allegiance to anyone ‘cause they’re coward frumpwusses who rely on the inaction to survive. Y’don’t want me to listen to your bullshit either, I’m gonna call it right out.
I’m lookin’ for critiques within my own pond, frankly. That’s why I point it out. Half the time we’ve got biases, I can easily identify ‘em. Some other times — dependin’ on who’s saying shit — I can trust that someone’s bein’ fair on the topic and it’s not some secret agenda to push ya into an alt-right discord to slowly get you brainwashed. I need an actual point.
So, I guess that’s the question to wrap up this unwarranted rant.
What IS wrong with Gaming Journalism? Is it a similar issue with Journalism as a whole? Are people just whinin’ that their super special niche has branched out into the mainstream and how — like many other mediums — has got a few hands stirrin’ the pot now? |
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| Merry xmas and a happy new year! |
[Dec. 25th, 2025|09:55 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | event, new year | ] |
| [ | listening to... |
| | Christina Aguilera - Lady Marmalade | ] |
| [ | mood... |
| |  Stressed | ] |
| [ | currently at... |
| | At home | ] |
This holiday break was... more boring for me cuz' I always stayed inside - but oh well I got some books, one of them was Margaret Atwood's The Handmaid's Tale, which is kind of confusing to read but I'm working on it. My stepdad prepared the whole thanksgiving-ish Christmas dinner the whole day yesterday, mom had to go on a diet ever since her doctor chewed her on her body problems, and I was thinking about going back to drawing (it was the least I could do, k?) I promised earlier to draw something for Anouk but my creativity juices aren't squeezing up :( but I'll try and do it before next year.
And don't get me started on music. This year's gotta be one of the worst years for music; bland, bland, unoriginal, uninspiring... oh I m SO GLAD I didn't recognize all of the songs on the charts. That's why me and my mom were binging on Britney Spears, All Saints (one song unfortunately), TLC, The Black Eyed Peas, and any old song mom had on her mind. She's very proud of it. o_o
PLUGS: everybody who's reading this :p
Nikki signing off xoxo |
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[Dec. 20th, 2025|01:01 am] |
whoever made yesterday's wordle i hope your pillow is always warm |
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| Blow your mind with MAKE MY VIDEO! (Not) |
[Dec. 19th, 2025|10:57 pm] |
Platform: Sega CD
Ooohh yeah baby, totally hip hints, p-p-phat visuals and a slammin’ soundtrack right here to Make My Video! HAHAHA! More like phat-ass visuals which y’can EAT big time! Are you one of those epileptic chumps or one of those lame frumpwusses that don’t enjoy music?! Well, look away from this totally ludicrously fire video! For COOL KIDS ONLY!
Man, I dunno how to make engagin’ hooks, okay? But I make a good 90s cool impression, don't I?
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Anyways! Make My Video. It fuckin’ sucks!
Rating: I NEED A SECOND out of 10.
End of review. |
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| 80's Dating Tapes remind me I don't suck! |
[Dec. 16th, 2025|03:54 pm] |
Reader, lemme tell ya what’s shakin’ with me. I’m a weird alien in the shape of a very cute woman, but by god I don’t know ANYTHING ‘bout the dating scene. Shit’s confusin’ to me, pal. As a creature that needs direct input I don’t thrive too well in that space. I always thought, though, that most of the folks around me had a better time with the whole thing! Maybe not in modern times (god knows I’ve seen lotsa people jabber about how they suck at it) but I thought that maybe in the old days there were more coherent interactions, smarter conversations, knew the do’s and don’ts of datin–.
Fuck no.
In the ancient times of the 1980’s the world of romance didn’t strike any different colors than it does now, from what I can catch. The tinders and grindrs of the world in our modern times are just a natural evolution of what once was Youtube, eHarmony and the geriatric Match dot com. When the ‘net was not a common item ‘round the working class houses of America, there was the mythical (and almost pitiful) world of dating tapes.
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