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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-12-29 08:23 am

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TODO:
- SPAG check / edit remaining four pages
- Upload new graphics
- Draft emails
- Draft [redacted] message (I need to retool it, but it works.)
- Edit new index
- Double check old pages
- Find and replace old usernames
- Change URL
- Upload new stuff (??? I don't know what I meant by this)
- Squat old username and upload new splash

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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-12-27 02:33 pm

ode to pokemon anon

As a note, I am jittery, running on caffeine, and haven't eaten yet. So this will be unruly.

I haven't had great Neocities experiences in the last 3 years, but since early last year I suddenly had an online penpal situation with an anonymous reader who found my site from a page about my shiny Pokemon collection. The emails turned from talking about Pokemon, jokes, website stuff, to computer and privacy related stuff and very vague allusions to personal problems. This person was very into privacy stuff and talked to me about alternative browsers and Linux stuff. To be honest, I'm currently not ready to take the Linux pill or care about alternative chat protocols, but I appreciated I was a space for this guy to give instructions and share resources. To be honest, I think a lot of the interest stems from political paranoia and whatnot, since the last email mentioned Jesus and a rapture....

I got an email from PA that they're deleting their email. I couldn't send my response. So I'll copy&paste the non-personal parts. PA doesn't appear to use ANY mainstream site outside of browsing personal ones, so I don't know if PA will see it.
ETA: HAHA OOPS I let the "locker room talk" slip in public. Oh well, anyone who has spoken to me privately knows I'm not politically correct.

The email contained instructions to quickly installing Linux and resources that I'll archive. I was going to ask for permission, but the account was deleted after the email was sent. If any Linuxheads want to comment and verify, feel free. I can post more tech advice PA sent me for legacy purposes.
linux instructions and resources )

Hope you're okay, PA, wherever you are. My rebranded website by January shouldn't be hard to find. You know my email, feel free to throw me a line.
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vash ([personal profile] tenderfeeling) wrote2025-12-27 05:03 pm
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[title card] december

well. christmas came and went. i didn't write anything about it because i don't really celebrate!

it's... a... to me, it's like.. [flounders a little] it feels like another one of those social conventions that just makes other people feel bad, but this one seems to be more socially acceptable all around? i don't really know. it comes with a lot of pressure even to people who seem to appreciate holidays. my girlfriend got me a sonic plush, because they wanted to, and though i'm usually very resistant to receiving gifts (i... don't feel... like i deserve them, most of the time...) it would be cute and comforting to me so i'm pretty chuffed about it. little guy will be here around mid january as long as i don't forget to check in with customs.

mom got laid off, we're struggling, rent isn't paid, it's whatever. i've decided to stop stressing out about it and just take each day in stride. it doesn't make poverty less... stressful... to be in, but it keeps me from freaking the fuck out all the time because.. like.. that's not going to change anything. seems like everyone's a little fucked financially recently anyways. the state of the world worries me sometimes! but we've survived worse as a society.

i'm excited for 2025 to be over. it wasn't as bad as 2024.. i had a lot of good things happen and good times but ultimately it's overstayed its welcome. i know the mere passage of time isn't magical and it won't make things better but, you know... we use these measures of time as a matter of perspective more than anything.

in other news, i finally watched all of katanagatari (and am currently reading the novels).... AND simultaneously getting into trigun at the behest of my other partner (that's a story for another entry). all around really good and also you should watch katanagatari. please. please? for me? it's good. "why are you not talking about trigun are you less enthusiastic about it" don't even joke about it lad. i just keep getting shy because it's something i care about that someone else showed me so i'm a little bashful.

things are interesting, things are interesting... even if life is hard, i've been unlocking a sense of deep satisfaction about it recently. i think everything is going to work out. please hang onto hope, even, no, especially when it's hard. it may take a long time, and we may falter, but i think we're all a lot more capable than we think.

P.S.: it's 85f but feels like 100-something right now. i feel like a bowl of melted butter
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-12-25 08:52 pm
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progress

TODO:
- SPAG check / edit remaining four pages
- Upload new graphics
- Redraw old mascot <- I am not doing this.
- Draft email and Discord messages (This shouldn't be hard, I can do it at work tomorrow)
- Draft [redacted] message (I need to retool it, but it works.)
- Find and replace old usernames
- Change URL
- Upload new stuff (??? I don't know what I meant by this)
- Squat old username and upload new splash
 
My attention span has been really bad. I've been doomscrolling. Doomscrolling Twitter, even, despite my account being locked. I needed to rest this Christmas but I may be back to "work" on this starting tomorrow or the 26th.
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Leo ([personal profile] retrogrrrl) wrote2025-12-25 10:45 am
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What IS wrong with Gaming Journalism?

Shit, I can’t be the only doofus to fuckin’ ask this question, right? God knows I’ve asked it many times, but y’see, I’m in a peculiar position. Carryin’ a pair of tits will do that to ya, couple that with an innate rebellious attitude and a love for retro games ‘cause of economic status and y’got yourself a recipe to make most American gamers whinge — even the nerds that permeate some of the retro space may have a problem with me, and we’re supposed to be more or less the same team!

What can I say? I’m too cool to be a nerd but too nerdy to be cool. Such is my long-standing curse, but that isn’t the end of it.

On top of all of it, I’m also a punk. Even though I no longer partake in the community (‘cause I have none) and distance myself from bein’ exclusively in that space, I got the political and social wisdom it imparted on me. Wisdom bein’, everythin’ fucking sucks but y’can always help your community ‘round you to make a change. Also, you can’t put Avril Lavigne in your fuckin’ crust pants, that’s not a crust band to put on yer crust PANT. My sensibilities and ability to call BULLSHIT have made me look deeper beyond the mainstream assumption that Gaming Journalism is just bad.

Sure, I can betcha is flawed like most other fuckin’ things in the world, but why is it BAD exactly? This question won’t be answered in this blog post, I’m postin’ the question for all the curious eyes scopin’ out my site, but I like givin’ extra context to why I’m askin’. Y’see, I can’t help but to notice that everytime someone says this to me it comes from a source I don’t trust. My brother says Gaming Journos are bad? I remember that he loves Asmongold and genuinely believes white racism is a thing. Twitter user Buttnuttgooner1488 tells me Gaming Journos are woke, damaging to the industry and shit? Well the symbolism in his frontpage aren’t exactly friendly, are they?

I realize this may be ‘cause I’m biased…. well D’UH, y’fuckin’ donut. What d’ya think? I’m not takin’ or hearin’ any gospel spoken outta the moufs of dimwits who have “PRINCIPLES” teeterin’ on the edge of danger fascist rhetoric – and you’ve gotta be a moron to take what they say with no pinch of salt. Half the time the criticizing ‘bout gaming journo ends up fallin’ down the anti-woke/sjw pipeline and delusional dreams ‘bout how the gaming community has always been acceptin’ of women and queer gamers (they don’t even touch the topic of racism ‘cause that would be havin’ to pull lotsa fucking weird tricks from under their sleeves).

I’m not askin’ for a “neutral” account and analysis. That’s another fuckin’ problem, the so-called CENTRISTS’ are just gutless gonzos who can never make a decision in their lives (and comin’ from a versatile bisexual? that’s a BURN) or signal their allegiance to anyone ‘cause they’re coward frumpwusses who rely on the inaction to survive. Y’don’t want me to listen to your bullshit either, I’m gonna call it right out.

I’m lookin’ for critiques within my own pond, frankly. That’s why I point it out. Half the time we’ve got biases, I can easily identify ‘em. Some other times — dependin’ on who’s saying shit — I can trust that someone’s bein’ fair on the topic and it’s not some secret agenda to push ya into an alt-right discord to slowly get you brainwashed. I need an actual point.

So, I guess that’s the question to wrap up this unwarranted rant.

What IS wrong with Gaming Journalism? Is it a similar issue with Journalism as a whole? Are people just whinin’ that their super special niche has branched out into the mainstream and how — like many other mediums — has got a few hands stirrin’ the pot now?
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-12-24 08:51 pm
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Merry Christmas!

Donations:

$10 to Wikipedia
$10 to Artfight
$15 to Furaffinity
£7 to Marapets
$10 to Sheezyart
$15 to Dreamwidth

I'll probably commission people after the holiday bustle.
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-12-19 10:10 pm
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meme

Going to bed soon. But I found something I needed:

https://memed.io/laser-eyes-meme-maker

Makes glowing eyes for meme. You can combine it with the deep frier: https://deepfriedmemes.com/



I am close to my finish line.
TODO:
- SPAG check / edit remaining four pages
- Upload new graphics
- Redraw old mascot
- Draft email and Discord messages
- Draft [redacted] message
- Find and replace old usernames
- Change URL
- Upload new stuff
- Squat old username and upload new splash
I work 40hr this week and will be busy on Christmas, but this might be done before January. I might be free for next year.
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Leo ([personal profile] retrogrrrl) wrote2025-12-19 10:57 pm
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Blow your mind with MAKE MY VIDEO! (Not)

Platform: Sega CD

Ooohh yeah baby, totally hip hints, p-p-phat visuals and a slammin’ soundtrack right here to Make My Video! HAHAHA! More like phat-ass visuals which y’can EAT big time! Are you one of those epileptic chumps or one of those lame frumpwusses that don’t enjoy music?! Well, look away from this totally ludicrously fire video! For COOL KIDS ONLY!

Man, I dunno how to make engagin’ hooks, okay? But I make a good 90s cool impression, don't I?
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Anyways! Make My Video. It fuckin’ sucks!

Rating: I NEED A SECOND out of 10.

End of review.
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-12-19 06:01 pm
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yay

1. Inching close to The Rebrand. I have a few more pages left. If I finish by next week, the only thing I have left are to draw assets.

2. I've decided to stop dieting the way I do. My method of "trying to lose weight" was "calorie counting and eating less" which... isn't working out. My impulse control has improved by drinking inositol this year and it helped me go down 3 pant sizes and 1-2 shirt sizes, but I'm lowkey starving myself by not eating much. It's impacted my brain functions, when I have "low calorie/food" days I have a hard time thinking and doing what I need. So I'm not going to obsess over eating under 1500 calories, just being a bit better. I bought tomatos, eggs, and avocados, and I had a really good breakfast days ago by having that on a rice cracker.

3. I've been addicted to Monster energy. I quit in September because it fucked up my teeth, but went back last month because I worked so many hours before Sonic Expo. Sometimes I really need at least one to get through my shifts. Now I'm trying to cut back again, because out of my two vices, I spend more money on Monster than Littlest Pet Shop toys. My work lets employees have free Red Bulls in the back, so I was drinking those. The issue is, people drank all the regular Red Bulls... and the zero flavor is disgusting, as is the juneberry. So if we don't get normal Red Bulls again tomorrow I may drink ONE Monster a day. Ugh.

Hopefully I will get that bad tooth in the back removed next year... I just don't have time I find a dentist with my work insurance, and then get an appointment on a day off.

4. I'm also cutting down on sleep aides. I'm still taking them, but I realized 5mg of melatonin and 25mg of Diphenhydramine is actually better than 5.5mg and 50mg. I've had trouble getting out of bed or waking up at night on higher doses, so I'll continue this smaller dose on work nights.

5. Speaking of Littlest Pet Shops, my work has holiday-themed blind bags. I got 3 out of 4 so far. Unfortunately, I got a dupe of the rabbit, so I might double check the codes to get the deer. I got the tiger yesterday, and I like it enough to keep as-is instead of modding. Same with the rabbit. I like the deer too and really want it. The penguin on the other hand goes in my "to trade at conventions" bag, lol.

6. My Bluesky domain stopped working last week and the site I got it on, handles.club, is down. It was inevitable, honestly. Giving out people free domains isn't going to last long when meme ones like .pizza, .wine, .voda, .men, etc. are expensive to renew. So I am not getting my .pizza meme domain back because it's very expensive. I might buy a domain after I rebrand, I just don't know which. I figured something like .xyz.

7. My time off request on the 23rd was rejected, so I'm working for the next few days. I REALLY hate last minute shoppers. I almost had a panic attack on the day before Thanksgiving due to complete idiots shopping last minute. The kicker is EVERYTHING IS SOLD OUT!!! For the love of god, stay home on the 23rd. Don't order online. Leave me alone!
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Leo ([personal profile] retrogrrrl) wrote2025-12-16 03:54 pm

80's Dating Tapes remind me I don't suck!

Reader, lemme tell ya what’s shakin’ with me. I’m a weird alien in the shape of a very cute woman, but by god I don’t know ANYTHING ‘bout the dating scene. Shit’s confusin’ to me, pal. As a creature that needs direct input I don’t thrive too well in that space. I always thought, though, that most of the folks around me had a better time with the whole thing! Maybe not in modern times (god knows I’ve seen lotsa people jabber about how they suck at it) but I thought that maybe in the old days there were more coherent interactions, smarter conversations, knew the do’s and don’ts of datin–.



Fuck no.

In the ancient times of the 1980’s the world of romance didn’t strike any different colors than it does now, from what I can catch. The tinders and grindrs of the world in our modern times are just a natural evolution of what once was Youtube, eHarmony and the geriatric Match dot com. When the ‘net was not a common item ‘round the working class houses of America, there was the mythical (and almost pitiful) world of dating tapes.
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